Shaky

Much like the movie, "The Blair Witch Project" my life has been shakin' up a bit. This is not necessarily a bad thing, but it is scary sometimes when I stop and think.

Is there anyone there? Just nod if you can hear me.

I have acheived singledom once again. It has been some time since I was "really" single, but I guess I was never "really" not. My now ex-boyfriend, who is quite certainly no "boy" has broken up with me for the last time! No one "really" believes this, but I know it to be true. It's that feeling you get. That overdonewithgone feeling. You just couldn't stomach the thought. That's how I feel.

I am alone here in my town. I don't know too many people. The ones I do know are happily married. We go out sometimes and they mean well, but I usually end up feeling like such a "desperate ex-housewife" when they ask their friends, "do you have any single friends?"
Most of the time, the person doesn't even answer the question. They just sort of have this frozen wierd look on their face and they wait for someone to change the topic, as do I.

So here I am. All shoke up. Trying to sort myself out. I have taken some steps to getting myself back out there. I'm not so worried about meeting a guy right now. What I really need are friends. Friends like me. I'm 36 and it's a bit more challenging to make new friends.

I'm glad I'm here. Right now, I'm just talking to myself.