Visits From My Grandmother

Next month it will be a year since my grandmother passed. The unveiling is set for November 5th and we have a lunch gathering at my cousin's house afterwards. I have seen my grandmother a couple of times now since she passed away. She has come in my dreams twice now. The first time was in the Spring. It was kind of odd actually. In my dream I was in Paris, in a hotel. The door was open and there was a big spiral staircase in plain view. First I saw my mother and my grandmother (who we called Mom Mom Mary) and then coming in the opposite direction up the stairs was my Aunt and another Mom Mom Mary. When the passed each other the one said, "Hi Mom Mom Mary" and the other one smiled and said, "Hi Mom Mom Mary." I then said to my mother, "Why are there two Mom Moms?" I don't remember if she answered me. They were both wearing identical tracksuits. The weird thing was that after that dream my Aunt fell sick. She had what they thought was an infection in her heart. It turned out she had cancer in her lung which was causing fluid to build up in her heart. It took them a while to figure this out. She had had issues with cancer in the past, but had not had an occurrence in years. Then over the summer, my mother was diagnosed with Non-Hodgkins Lymphoma. I'm very worried about her because she doesn't give the whole picture. She glosses things over so people don't worry, but I worry anyway.

The other night I had a dream that I had cancer. I had three brown patches on my chest and everyone was telling me that it was really going to hurt when they removed it and it was going to leave a big scar. Then my grandmother came and she was again wearing a track suit, and she said, "The only way to make sure it's benign is to change your name to Mary." Then I woke up. My grandmother's name was Mary.