Sunday, August 28, 2005

Sliding Door Moment

It's not that I thought he was going to be wonderful or that we would end up rekindling our first grade romance, but I didn't expect him to be such a freak.

I dropped off the kids and the puppy at my mom's. I touched up the makeup and I was off to Starbucks to meet Elliot. A car turned in front of me and I thought, oh no I hope that's not him! He pulled into the gas station so I thought I was safe. I pulled into the Starbucks parking lot. I looked around at all of the cars, wondering which was his. I walked in, but didn't notice anyone looking around. I wondered if I would even recognize him. I went to the counter to order an iced latte, and the door opened. I turned around. There was Elliot. It was the guy who had turned in front of me. Ugh! He had on black baggy dress pants that were very long and a grey shirt, with a wool blazer and sneakers. It must have been 80+ degrees outside. I put my hand out and smiled. He said, "Blair? You look lovely." He leaned in to give me a kiss on the cheek. He said, "So this is Starbucks, I've never been to a Starbucks before. Do they have tea here?" "Yes", I said. I placed my order and his since he was not familiar with the "lingo" and we found a table and sat down to chat.

He was asking some questions about the old neighborhood. Most of the names he mentioned, I didn't even remember. In fact, I didn't remember much about him after 1st grade. When Missy Gildenberg told me to break up with Elliot because he had wax in his ears. He told me that he ran into Missy when he was 11 years old. He asked her about me but she had said that we weren't friends anymore. I told him about the falling out we had in the 6th grade and that we made up but things were just never the same. He went on to tell me that he moved in 3rd Grade because his parents got divorced. He said his life was pretty much down hill after that. He excused himself to go to the restroom, and asked me if I would watch his tea? I said, "Sure. I won't let anyone take it." I thought about bolting out of there. I was a little frightened of this guy. He was acting really strange. But I didn't. I stayed.

Elliot walked back to the table with a big smile on his face. This was probably the first time he has smiled in a while. He went on to tell me about the friends that he had and how many of them had turned to drugs. One guy died from an overdose another was killed by a drunk driver. Then he told me that his old babysitter had killed herself. I started to think that maybe this guy was the grim reaper. Then I remembered in first grade, our teacher had died. She was out sick for a while and then she just never came back.

He told me that he never married. He told me that he's been working at the same job since he graduated highschool. He does Opinion Research. I told him a little about what I do. A little about my kids. I told him I had a boyfriend. He said, "Well he's very lucky. You are very beautiful." I smiled. I felt bad for lying, but I didn't want him to think that I was interested. He asked me if he was cool back when I knew him. I said, "I don't know. I guess." He said, "I wonder if things would have turned out differently for me if I never moved away?" I said, "Well, it's not to late to change your path."

I wondered if this was the reason for us meeting up after all of these years. Was I meant to tell him this? He seemed to be searching for an answer. I guess that's why he looked me up on Classmates.com, I guess that's why he contacted me.

I looked at my watch and almost an hour had passed. I told him that I had to get back. He asked me to walk to his car. He had made a copy of our first grade picture. He put it in a cardboard envelope that he had painted. It looked like spin art. He said he had just done it and he wasn't sure if it was dry. It was as if he had never grown up. I thanked him and he walked me over to my car. I said goodbye. He gave me a hug. He said that he missed me. It was awkward, but I smiled and then said goodbye again. Got in my car and drove off.

Tuesday, August 23, 2005

Blahdy Blahdy Blah

I was thinking I would blog everyday. It's not that I don't have anything to say, I have too much and with each day that passes it keeps growing. So much so, that I am reluctant to write. Anyway, that is my lamo excuse for not blogging for a while!

I can almost say that I am over the X, apart from the talking all the time, and meeting up for a drink every now and then, I seem to be doing fine without him. We have evolved into a platonic relationship. It's just like it was before minus the sex. What do you know, we can be friends.

I have now had 812 visits to my Match.com profile! I haven't gone out with anyone yet. Came close, but then bailed out. I went to visit my 90 year old grandmother on Sunday. She is always asking me where I'm going, what I'm doing. I guess she likes to live vicariously through me. I haven't had too much excitement lately. I could see the disappointment in her eyes. So I told her, "I could have a date everyday of the week if I wanted to." I felt like such an idiot after I said that. And then when I spoke to my Mother tonight she mentioned that my grandmother told her that I said that. Ugh!

Has anyone ever joined Classmates.com? I joined it about... I don't know, 3 years ago? Every once in a while I'll get an email that says, "12 new classmates have joined" Sometimes, I'll follow the link. I never really know who's new. You have to sift through the 800+ classmates.
My friend Brian and I were talking about it a few weeks ago and he thought it was a total scam because they make you pay to email people. I have a Gold membership. Anyway, last week I got an email that said one of my classmates contacted me! I followed the link and found an email from my first boyfriend from first grade. I emailed him back and we are going to meet up for coffee and catch up. That's a lot of catching up! I haven't told Brian yet. I can't wait to prove him wrong about this classmates.com thing. I might even have to marry this guy ;) just kidding.

I bought a puppy. A Bishon Frise. He is absolutely adorable! He looks like a little white teddy bear. He is very lovable but sometimes he gets evil. Especially when he sees shadows. That really freaks him out. He is literally afraid of his own shadow.

If anybody has any puppy training tips I would be very happy to hear them! I will hopefully have some pics of the pup to post soon!

Monday, August 08, 2005

Skipping The Wha Wha Wha!

Ok. I could continue to go on and on about the ex. I could confess to meeting up with him for drinks. It was nice to see him. To laugh with him. Still there were awkward moments when he would look at me and say, "What?" As if he was waiting and wanting me to suggest "something", but I didn't.

Right, but I'm skipping the Wha Wha Wha! For now at least. I have done a lot since my last blog. I've slow danced into single world.

So far:

I posted my profile on two dating sites!

Today I posted my profile on Match. Within 3 minutes I had 3 emails! I now have 10 emails and 12 winks!

Chatted with an Insurance Sales Guy who seemed really great. Then he proceeded to tell me that he wasn't divorced yet, it was almost final. Then he told me that when he asked his wife for a divorce, she attacked him. And then she called the police and said he attacked her. Of course the police believed her. "Of course", I said. Then he said, "It gets worse. I have to go to anger management classes every Tuesday and I hardly get to see my kids" I felt terrible.

The next day I was supposed to chat with the Insurance Guy, but I blew him off. Then I sent him an email. I told him that I appreciated his honesty and that I hoped that things would get better for him, but that I couldn't put myself in that situation. Sucks.

Friday night I went out with a Venezuela guy. We met up at a really cool restaurant in Philly. I've been wanting to go there for a while. He was no where near as good looking as his picture and he had phangs like dracula. But at least I'm out there. One less frog before I meat my prince!

Saturday, I went to NYC to meet up with the Debs (I have three friends named Debbie)
I took the train in. NJ Transit. It's cheap, but I really hate it. I would pay 4 times as much to take Amtrak, but the weekend schedules are just way too random! So, I brought my ipod, my book and my new Coach weekend bag which was packed with way too many clothes for one night!
I reached Penn Station and it's pretty crowded. When I was walking up the steps and a woman behind me stepped on my flip flop causing my toes to get scraped under the step above. I let out a very loud scream, "AHHH!!!" The bitch didn't even say she was sorry! My toes were gushing with blood!

"You! Yes, you! Stand still laddie!"

I glared at her. Then I said, "Look at what you did!" She turned to me and said with an obvious French accent, "I'm sorry about your toes" I nodded, but it was an unforgiving nod. I wanted to punch her in the face. I knew it was an accident, but I didn't care. I went into the bathroom to clean off my bloody toes. Then found Duane Reade and bought some Neosporin ointment to put on it. God knows how dirty that station was, but I wasn't going to let this incident ruin my night!

I got into a cab and was off to the upper east side of Manhattan. I reached Deb's apartment...

I found out that the Debs broke up! Now there are only two Debs. I'm a little sad about that. Three Debs are much better than 2! Apparently she was a real Debbie Downer! Anyway, one of the Debs was on a date, so that left me with only 1 Deb. We went for dinner at a Cuban restuarant in the city. We ate some of the biggest tapas ever. Then went to the Bowery. A little young there, but I got to flirt a little with a hottie! That was fun. I'm still a little shy. I decided to switch my drink to Raspberry Stoli with Soda and a lime. It wasn't a late night, which was good. I was yawning by 10pm. In bed by midnight.

The next morning we went for coffee and picked up a New York Times. Then we had brunch at Nora's in the Meridian Hotel. Best brunch EVER!

I'm glad I'm finally getting myself out there. It's been 4 years of knowing I should. It's been too long.